She opened her eyes to see Omega right in front of her, and she tightened her arms around the pillow, strangling it nearly to death. She refused to cry, to sob, but the look of abject misery on her face suggested doing so was a near thing. Her talons pierced the thin case to keep from reaching out for him. Again.

Blue shook her head, still-damp hair falling across her shoulders, down her arms. "I want you to, that's the problem!" She hitched her knees up between them, one more barrier to overcome. "And it's so unfair--for you--because...I-I--I just can't. I can't." Another hard shake of her head. "I just can't."

Now, she sniffled. And hated herself for it. "Y-You don't d-deserve this, O-Omega. You've--c-come so far from...there and worked so hard t-to be b-better..." Blue finally shut up, biting her lips bloody to keep from again dissolving into a pool of worthlessness.